No common life // It's my life!

I don't know how to describe my heart with words.
When I confuse, I just hide myself in English.


Pretend no one understand and keep an eye on.
I hope I can be heeded but not. Not mean I am tough.
Just. I don't want others warried about me.


In fact, I find everything are far away little by little.


I often think alone even someone with me by side.


Not brave I am. Never.


I hate their face with ignoring.
I am here and listen to each words clearly.



 Maybe I am not the best one.
But I spend all my effort and energy.


I always try to do everything great even yours.
The work that no one wants to do, I still accept and receive.


Finally. WHAT DO I GET..


I feel tired not because of my body. Is heart.


Perhaps I got them myself. But it is not mean I HAVE TO.



As I am alone. I discover my friends around me are gone.
Because...when I sad, no one give me a hit. 
And no content window which care about me or cheer on pop.



Every time I am sad. NO tears appear.
I think I forget how to cry.

So I am in pain now..just because no tears..



Maybe the next one has melancholia..is me.
Granted that smile, I can't know if it's real.


  

I only hope I can get your smile and sure.


Not the face which  wear an embarrassed look.







And...I am not your tool or a implement.

I hate anyone exploit me to do anything but no emotions.



I pay for all my mind to with everyone called friend.

And not just be a implement.




Get it?